In 2021, I published my first book, a memoir, The Opposite of Butterfly Hunting: The Tragedy and the Glory of Growing Up. It’s an account of my perpetual struggle between self-expression and self-destruction, and ultimately, it’s an invocation to choose the creative path. Please check the content warning in the book listing before purchasing.

You can buy it at Hive, Waterstones or Amazon (U.K.) and Amazon (U.S.), or you can have me read it to you on Audible.

It's also available in Portuguese!

This book has mature content and may be triggering for anyone who has struggled with an eating disorder. However, I wrote it for the person I was as a troubled youngster, so who I am to tell you what not to read? Use your discretion.

I hope it makes you feel things!

‘As well as charting her adolescent battle with anorexia, it offers a darkly compelling, highly topical account of journeying from girlhood to womanhood in the spotlight of global celebrity.’ 

- The Mail on Sunday